You reached your goal in a year's time and you still have another year in the magic window. You're doing GREAT!Photobucket is being stupid so I'll have to edit in the picture later.
12 months
185.8 lbs
Not sure entirely how to feel a year out. It's been a bumpy ride at some points but I have gotten off so easy on complications so far. I have days when I wonder what I was thinking and days when I wish I had done this 10 years sooner. I'm a little disappointed with my weight loss but I am exactly at my preop goal. I guess we always want another 10 pounds. I'm still shrinking which is kinda strange since the scale has been bouncing around in a range for a couple months. I've gone done a couple ring sizes and the one I am wearing now is pretty loose most days. Have went from a 50 inch waist to a 34 and probably should be in a 32. Right now I'm just wearing a belt and pulling my drawers up as needed.
My body still kinda freaks me out on a regular basis with all the blood vessels and bones and ligaments and "inside stuff" I can see now. I also regularly freak out when I get something new in the mail and take it out of the package"I'll never fit in that, it looks like a kid's clothes" and then I put it on and it fits. Happens over and over.
Going on this journey has changed me in some ways but I'm still the same person with a lot of the same failings with food that I had preop. I still have work to do so the journey is not close to done for me.
My body still kinda freaks me out on a regular basis with all the blood vessels and bones and ligaments and "inside stuff" I can see now. I also regularly freak out when I get something new in the mail and take it out of the package"I'll never fit in that, it looks like a kid's clothes" and then I put it on and it fits. Happens over and over
I get really sleepy at work so I eat carbs to stay awake which works for half an hour to an hour but then I sugar crash and have to get another hit
I have been fighting a lot with "brain fog." I am very forgetful now. I've always been a bit of an absent minded professor but lately it's been turned up to 11. In terms of mood, some days I feel pretty light. Doing some intense work that gets the blood pumping can give me a "runner's high."How do you feel mentally? I kinda feel like I’m coming out of some fog/depression/something if that makes any sense. Look at your arms! And ribs!
Check your Vitamin B levels re: brain fog.I have been fighting a lot with "brain fog." I am very forgetful now. I've always been a bit of an absent minded professor but lately it's been turned up to 11. In terms of mood, some days I feel pretty light. Doing some intense work that gets the blood pumping can give me a "runner's high."
I'm still depressive, though, and also have had some pretty low days. Even though I'm still shrinking the scale hasn't really gone anywhere in a while, so that's been rough at times. My body image is kinda jacked. I feel really fat sitting on the can in the morning looking down at all the skin rolls around my midsection and how wide my thighs look. Standing clothed looking in a mirror head on I think I look fine, just typical dad bod.
It bothers me how judgmental I feel toward heavy people sometimes. Especially when I realize I was bigger than the person who I'm silently casting shade on.